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Pementasan dalam setiap kefahaman
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Sebenarnya aku dah lama MATI
ALHAMDULILLAH

Remains the same at my Stone House Blues

My world tranquillize in a ponder

I smile with a hidden sadness kept a secret

Life ain’t perfect anyway

For what matter most of all

Where do I stand in the midst of time?

To live in hopes and be thankful

My souls transcending into another dimensions

I see no one but myself

Tranquillize in a ponder

Today is present and yesterday becomes the past

I live my life as drifter waiting for the days

Delusional minds talking to myself

Looking for something new

But mostly all things have change

Remains the same at my Stone House Blues

I have found my answer years ago.

I have found my answer years ago. The glimpse already past-by me the only reason why I am aware, it’s not a prediction but a matter that cannot be explain through logical sense. I have always see things in different way and live by different ways. Met numbers of entity, regardless of race, language or religion from time to time and may not be at a pleasant place. Regardless how, the reason why I am able because of my principal but I do make mistakes, ampler times and it could be repeatly but I am aware of it. There will be times when I am able to see it in a blurry visionary acts before things happens only to makes me realized how life becomes subtle to fate. Nothing is stronger than fate. There are things that cannot be explained through logical sense. But I realized if you are able to pass through “PASRAH” it’s something cannot be explain.

Comfort zone. The definition does not configure into simplicity. It is a process to reach comfort which believed to become sociologically into happiness in life. Therefore to seek happiness should always be the FIRST option as long it does not goes against the principal of your FAITH. You are not able to make all people agreeable with you.  Concerning people too much will only lead the self to not process. Live life in trials and lets the FATE DECIDE.

Cleansing myself from the distorted minds of which from time to time I see nothing more than just tranquility in depth thoughts far from normal.  Seeing things in my visionary world in a stage process; to me what matter most where do I stand in the midst of time? Time will tell my tales.

Independence towards self without doubt to stand within the trials not to depend too much on others regardless blood-line, friendships or bind by oath for all that matter actually is fact. As I grew I begins to realized the facts thus I do not have an attempt to ignore myself, simplified it always go for what makes you happy firstly. How honest can you be towards life and yourself? Basically in life individuality own responsibilities which require action to anticipate towards his or her life. Secondly the willingness to sacrifices what matters. Alas words can be merely words. Action talks louder than words. Therefore the essential comes back the same to seek own happiness first. Do what you feels make you happy as long it does not against your principal of faith.

For now whatever that matters for me to trials, I do not know what the future will be but I know processing myself of which not able to explain in simplified words. The past that I was have slowly creating a new me of which transcending into imperfection which I accept. Yes my imaginary world and I see myself alone. I choose to be what I am today basically expressing myself purely imperfect. The I.E.D may at times rises up but then I am able to conquer it only to give out in different way. I have found my answers. Yup FATE is design in such manners. It can at times be predicted but mostly hidden from reasons.

Life is nothing more than just a journey

I lay down for a moments to understood

Gazing and subconsciously awaken myself

To see the past and present which I have stand

Trials of effort that repeatly fails but I keep on moving

For all the matters to begin, without any doubt

By gracious of ALLAH I may be lost

Timeless effort of multi trials every now and then

Life has never been kind to me but I am fine

Simmering echo of voices that keep calling my names

To where I have been or presently remain standing

I walk for the distance that I have choose to be

By gracious of ALLAH I may be lost

Life is nothing more than just a journey

Weird

Twisted mind crawl deeper inside

Crying out loud for certain affection

Lowering in depth of the ocean

Hidden at times stumble by a calm waves

Across over the bridge of rainbow

Yet it remain clueless and lifeless

The book written is predestined

Believe it, nothing is stronger than fate

What lies ahead cannot be the answer

Life is to live practically as to survive

There’s no doubt, all have already written

Before you were even born to live

The door was all a while shut but visitor allow.

To where it may seem nothingness remain

The door was all a while shut but visitor allow

Numerical numbers that have been written

Clueless but mathematical already answer

Destination steps by steps so many wasted

For now the door still shut to close

To some it cannot be figure for an answer

No matter how nothing is stronger than fate

For what matter most to me what do I lay upon

Although I can said too many delusional fakers

I do not intimidate by what others may said

Everyone own their own chapter to seek

To Whom It May Concern for matters to console

Do what you think is faithfully rights and yours to belong

The world is never bride to be kind to everything

Life is to live practically and survive with no doubt

Live life in trials practice and lets the fate decide

We merely humans and the life end by the door shut

(By Masrulhakim, written on 2014 April 18 at 3:04pm) ·

Life is a learning lesson.

The definition of friends or friend come into theology of whom you may know personally or by communication regardless what method it maybe but then who are actually your friends or friend? Certification value of “friendship” should be tested by valid mature understanding, will power and respect in time thus even in conflicts certification value still exist. But when it begins to decline alas there can be no longer firm certification. It’s like a couple need to break up for a better thus still holding the respect but not trust. But in real life mostly when couples or husband and wife file a divorce the relationship will be sour. Therefore the basic fundamental is never to put 100% trust to anyone.

To all individuality born to be a seeker, regardless who he or she because life is a journey; yes full of osmotic transcending actions never less already predestined in fate. But then life adventure will be bored if ones only able to think just inside the manipulation man-kind system. Ones should live in creativity thus humbly express it as real as possible. To live without a lies, yes it can never be done but stick to the fundamental and remains in the principal. We cannot be same but common in understanding, if there’s a different one must humbly keep in mind because faith cannot be force. It’s yours, so is mine.

"People try to hold onto the sameness. This holding onto prevents growth." Bruce Lee

The statement as above is facts. In life one must lead into own creative motivation rather than suit to be a follower. Yes leader are not born without follower. Do not complicate your mind and justified it to just follow. Free yourself and have faith in yourself. A knowledge learn but does not bloom yourself actually a knowledge never learn in the first place. Life itself comes to maturity.

Life is a learning lesson. How you grow into a transcending own self depends how you think to lead your life. Countless effort of multi-trials even now seeking to bloom myself, at times I look back what I have written. What lies ahead is nothing more than my stories. How I make it? How I define it? Perfection is subjective no one born to be perfect therefore I do not believe in perfection merely to attain it what can be reach. Each and every individual self-lead their own path. The decision made should never be regretted for all as such already predestine in the circle of FATE. Nothing is stronger than fate. I am leading myself as always and never knows what lies ahead. Makes a plan which can be define but success is far ahead.

Love is merely and purely a distinction bonding ultimately with the other soul. Its normal but to attain such bonding is never a perfect journey. Decision and sacrifices require. I have been there many times only to see the lies in between the lines although I have or may trials again I do seek a perfect bonding. The valuable lesson humans cannot be studied like a book. But my principal remains as I do not like to shows others my relationships only to write it. It purely my experience, therefore the basic fundamental is never to put 100% trust to anyone. Live life in trials and lets the fate decide.