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Tanpa kudrat, iqtiqat, syariat dan makrifat hakikatnya tidak mungkin wujud hakikat itu sendiri. Lafaz terzahir tidak mungkin terlihat batin-NYA. Persoalan hati itu rumit dan mencermin diri  itu adalah yang paling TERBAIK walau bukan sebaiknya. Aku cuma melihat diri aku sendiri. Pengertian dan penilaian dalam diri sendiri.

To Live You Must Express Yourself In What You Believed In.

I live my life and express it in a different version. I have never intended to duplicate becoming somebody because I do not believe in becoming someone else. Life should be a process proceeding to progress in self with others.  Imperfection and you cannot make everyone like you or agreeable with you. Why worries about others whom just concern for purpose? Time is precious live life utmost with people whom except you as who you are and your imperfection. There is other concern which is YOU.  To live humbly and graciously as I live life in trials practice and let the FATE DECIDE.

One can never live to be alone as individuality in life because the world can never be alone without the other. For such matters a picture shows the comfort require by everybody. It’s a plain black and white that roots among us. What matter most are the balances to live in it. We can never be the same because each and every own seek or come from different path. The hearts have always been important parts of our immune system.

Timeless effort of multi trials as years past by and looking to where I am standing; although too many times in failure my faith still intact, ALHAMDULILLAH and practically because I live within my principal as such live is to live practically and survive with no doubt. I may compare at times but then I do not make it into absolute tragic. Why bother? PASRAH cannot be define or describe into written words. To entrain enlighten you must seek yourself and FOCUS.

To live in hope without a doubt by grace of ALLAH, for all that matter I will be lost without the guidance. There are so many failures careers, relationships and even friendships but to me the reals one will stay. Experience cannot be studied but trials through it and I have long realized never to put any trust completely in anyone. Trust is not merely by words of sentences but action true fully and the result from it. I am not a saint nor am I a religious person as I am the way I believe as I put my faith and trials to learn and progress. I can envy some but nothing is stronger than fate. For all matters of trials, I let the fate decide. I believed in self-cultivation rather than following the distinction of path lead by others because basically we are all different; physically, mentally, emotionally, biologically and all osmotic content in us, process and progress.

CERMIN DIRI DALAM KOTAK HATI

Persoalan hati itu memang rumit. Hati tidak dapat di didik hanya dengan ilmu. Berapa ramai manusia berilmu tidak kira dalam apa bidang sekalipun mahu mengakui bahawa masih dalam kebodohan?  Hati itu adalah diri di mana memiliki antara fungsi  yang tersirat atau disebaliknya dalam perbuatan dan sikap. Itulah manusia memang lumrah, tidak kira dalam pertalian darah, berpasangan atau berkawan. Hakikatnya manusia yang bertuah itu adalah mereka-mereka yang memperolehi petunjuk dan hidayah lantaran mengamalkannya dalam apa yang difahami dengan keyakinan. Namun juga persoalan hati kembali lagi, mencabar hati nurani dalam keikhlasan. Hati yang tidak mahu sadar akan sentiasa merasakan benar. Antara maruah yang perlu dijaga atau kebenaran yang perlu dinyatakan dalam penerimaan? Hati perlu di didik dengan mencabar diri menerima kekhilafan yang sentiasa ada dalam diri.

Mengimbau kembali pada tahun 2001 di bulan Mei. Suatu perkara yang menimpa diri sewaktu N.S. Semasa berlatih larian perasaan seperti angin melintang dan terasa menusuk daripada bumi ke dalam diri. Secara  tiba-tiba jantung berdebar, seleruh anggota badan lemah dan badan menggigil. Aku sadar terkena perkara tidak masuk akal. Di hantar ke hospital dan menjalani peperiksaan. Ujian X-ray dan pelbagai dijalankan. Ujian di terima aku disahkan oleh doktor sihat. Bapa aku menghantar aku berubat di Batu Pahat dengan seorang Cikgu di Jalan Sentol. Katanya kepada aku, “Alhamdulillah awak kuat.” Selepas itu mengambil masa seketika. Perkara yang terjadi mempunyai hikmah pelajaran yang tidak bernilai. Asal usul dalam penerimaan syariat pasti akan kekal tetapi hakikat tidak mengenal dalam duduk perkara. Pasal itulah hakikat. Bicara ini tidak akan dapat mampu difahami bagi mereka-mereka yang tidak mengerti istilah hakikat hidup.

Aku amat beruntung kerana walaupun tidak dapat mencungkil sepenuh daripada bapa aku tetapi bicara pengetahuan dan pengalamannya menambahkan kematangan aku. Bapa aku bukan sekadar belajar dengan seorang guru Silat yang disegani tetapi juga didk daripada Buyut dan Abang kepada Embah aku.  Bapa aku orang Batu Pahat dan apabila orang terlebih cerita pasal KIYAI SALLEH aku hanya diam membisu. Telah menjadi lumrah sehingga kini tambah-menambah. Aku minat banyak perkara silat mungkin daripada darah yang mengalir. Daripada situ jugalah banyak yang aku sedar masyarakat MELAYU banyak yang masih terikat dalam pikiran ortodok. Ada perkara dalam adat atau pengamalan yang sememangnya tidak boleh kerana keluar daripada syariat. Persoalan hati memang rumit. Antara amalan ISLAM dan BUDAYA/ADAT  tidak mungkin sama. Berapa ramai yang boleh terima? Pandai dalam satu bidang tidak boleh disamakan pandai dalam semua bidang. CIKGU mana yang pandai dalam semua bidang? Dalam perkara agama pun sama. Tidak perlu taksub hanya kepada seorang.

Pada tahun 2010 setelah lama tidak berkecimpung dalam dunia silat alhamdulillah, takdir menemukan aku dengan seorang guru yang bukan saja unik tetapi berilmu. Alhamdulillah ada perkara terjawap selepas bertahun tiada seorang yang aku jumpa MAMPU menjawap. Mungkin perkara ini telah menjadi suatu perkara yang dianggap BENAR. memang ramai yang masih dalam fikiran ortodok. merasa benar dalam kebenaran. Aku belum lagi mampu meneruskannya buat masa ini atas urusan peribadi dan memang kerana jiwa aku yang belajar tidak suka menampil ke depan. Antara sebab kenapa banyak gambar penampilan silat di dalam FB banyak aku “private”kan.  Itulah diri aku tetapi ramai TERKELIRU. Bagi aku pelajaran tidak kira dengan sesiapa adalah urusan peribadi aku kerana aku ingin mendidik diri aku. Aku adalah pelajar yang keluar daripada pemikiran sebagai murid. Aku belajar untuk mengenal diri. Biarlah walau sekadar sekarat sekalipun tapi nikmat kesyukaran tidak akan mampu dicoretkan atau digambarkan. Alhamdulillah. Semoga GURUKU itu terus teguh dalam melestarikan dan membudaya TRADISI. Semoga ALLAH memberkahi atas segala usahanya dan memberikan beliau kesejahteran sekeluarga. SEMOGA YANG BERSAMA GURUKU  AKAN TERUSKAN JUGA MELESTARIKAN BUDAYA TRADISI.

Silat itu milik siapa? Di mana makam silat?Apa penting tradisi dan kontridaksi? Siapa yang benar? Bagaimana harus dipusakai dan mewarisi silat? Persoalan hati memang rumit sehingga hari ini pun “PERANG” melanda dalam perkara silat. Pada tahun 2011 pula aku ke seminar seseorang yang disegani. Beliau daripada Brunei. Pelajarannya walaupun hanya dua hari saja tetapi aku pasti akan pengisian dalam rangkaian teknik. Semoga Allah memberikan beliau kesentosaan dan manfaat ilmu untuk sesiapa yang belajar daripada beliau. Pada pandangan aku beliau mengajar keluar daripada tradisi dan walau aku kenal sekadar aku PASTI lalunya menemukan KONTRIDAKSI oleh pelbagai pihak yang mencabar, daripada BANGSA SENDIRI dan senibbela diri yang lain. Persoalan hati memang rumit.

Sesungguhnya ALLAH mengangkat derjat seseorang melalui ilmu dan keikhlasan seseorang itu menempatkan mereka ke dalam “makam” terpiliih. “MAKAM” itu memilih siapa dan “makam” apa? Persoalan yang boleh difahami apabila mengerti. Itu adalah amanah yang mereka kena tanggung. Tulisan ini adalah untuk aku mencerminkan diri dan benar-benar faham persoalan hati aku hanya ALLAH.

"Asal silat sebenarnya diri. Diri bergerak dan melangkah dalam tari dalam sembah maka berbuah jurus. Asal silat tiada asal hanya diri namun diri tanpa hak tiada silat. Asal silat asal semulajadi kerana silat ada langkah ada gerak. Asal silat dalam ilmu tanpa amalan maka tiada terisi. Asal silat dalam amalan tanpa ilmu tiada hak. Asal silat dalam ilmu dalam amalan maka itulah silat. Asal silat mesti seimbang baru menyerang. Asal silat tiada menyerang tiada membela diri kerana itulah asal semulajadi.”

How you want to stamp your life?

How you want to stamp your life? Life ain’t just working your entire ass up high but simplified it thus feeling the blessing that you own. If you are capable enough do what you feel you want as long it does not implicate your principal of faith. Friends you can have thousands of friends but practically only selective few will lead with you. Definitely there are betrayal or even been bluff but it about what you selected.  Human nature can be so complicated. Always live life in trials practice and lets the fate decide. Everyone in fact looking for safe and comfort, the question what action have you taken for a change? Even in relationship. There are many divorces and heart break lover or betrayal. To simplify it, firstly never trust 100% in relationship. Always live life in trials practice and lets the fate decide. But it all comes back to YOU. Are you been honest? To each and all individuality as such build up will encounter of self-reflection towards his/her life establishment in honest self and others, responsibilities for what is own and the sacrifices that lead upon. 3 reasonable factors in life that will be lead along the way in life, so what is your selection? Do you complete it?

The past is no longer valid only fragments of emotional thought which once was a factor. The journey of a choice for a chance seeking change but NOTHING IS STRONGER THAN FATE; thus I will never attempt to put myself 100% to people only 100% to ALLAH for all the matters that lead me today. Having a triumph card or stand-by evaluate functionality will not make you DUMB and configure as an asshole forever CLUELESS. Life to me is to live practically and survive with no doubt. I live my life in trials practice and let the fate decide. What I am today presently cannot be compared to what I am from the past. You will never or able to makes everyone agreed to which ever you seek upon. Trust me we must never complicate ourselves and minds to be extended in theirs comparison because to each and every individuality lives in different lives thus who actually know what really you involve into? We should bloom as who we are. Knowledge can be borrowed but can never be own therefore practically those who live in their capabilities actually live up upon their own creativity. One example regards relationships with humans, my long-term friendship to which I valid as “best friend” tarnish because of change. Mutual agreement still valid but the respect which was once certified by will power broken alas really pities him. We all lies at times but when the validation- crosses over the principal, CERTIFICATION VALUE NO LONGER BECOMES VALUE.

Life to each and every own looking for comfortable, the question how to be in comfort zone? Life my friends are not absolute. I have to agreed having tons of money or status will make you happy but will never makes you merrier thus the definition of been happy is not about tons of money or status, simply things you does or just by joining into it can just make you smile. The plus factor when it spread to others. WE DON’T LIVE ALONE BUT DYING ALONE WHEN THE TIMES COME-BY.

To some whatever that was written here may seem to proclaim about my stupidity but to me as a reflection of my journey. The failures basically more than the success, all as such osmotic in my transcending self as I seek ZEN; for all from past to present without the guidance from ALLAH I will definitely LOST. I am trying and will keep on trying as I develop myself into my visionary imagination and abstract creativity world.

Everyone own their own chapter to seek

To where it may seem nothingness remain

The door was all a while shut but visitor allow

Numerical numbers that have been written

Clueless but mathematical already answer

Destination steps by steps so many wasted

For now the door still shut to close

To some it cannot be figure for an answer

No matter how nothing is stronger than fate

For what matter most to me what do I lay upon

Although I can said too many delusional fakers

I do not intimidate by what others may said

Everyone own their own chapter to seek

To Whom It May Concern for matters to console

Do what you think is faithfully rights and yours to belong

The world is never bride to be kind to everything

Life is to live practically and survive with no doubt

Live life in trials practice and lets the fate decide

We merely humans and the life end by the door shut


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Compassion and expression may vary in different forms

Compassion and expression may vary in different forms such as images via physically or by imaginative views in the minds. You cannot expect everyone to understand you. Language and distinct from every entity can never be the same as such whatever the outcome at the end of time; it’s your time therefore there can never be absolute. For all the thousand years of past till present entity have always becomes a seeker. Looking for what purpose? Life can never be read or write like a script. Establishment from time to time in a way to progress and process as entity we actually fighting our own monster inside us and the only different validation of not becoming insane but attach to your monstrous self. Do you know who you are?

"We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.  To quote from Whitman,“O me! O life!… of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless… of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?” Answer. That you are here – that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. That the powerful play “goes on” and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?

What lay up for us is set up upon uncertainties. Validation logically to adapt in practical as we move on to changes. In general basically we are all cannot be the same. We may know each other for a long period of time or next-to kin but as such all attachment not owned as ownership's thus I have never intended to make anyone in debt with me. Therefore although in my life some may have misused my generosity and unassumingly thought or taken my kindness as weakness. To whom it may concerns it’s because life is not just a matter of materialism.

Never lose your faith.

Life plunder into transition of chapter for every journey embark towards passing the glimpse of time before the end itself. Osmotic to be contented or not as such either physically, emotionally or mentally the facts is life live as its own. Relationships bind through transaction given or taken and some even betrayal within the self; clueless as it might be life already predestined. Where is the life? For all the thousand years from early tribe to modernization evolve but come to nothingness because everything comes to an end. Life cannot be generalized into subjective without faith. The meaning of life constitutes a philosophical question concerning the purpose and significance of life or existence in general. This concept can be expressed through a variety of related questions. What is life all about? What is the meaning of it all? It has been the subject of much philosophical, scientific, and theological speculation throughout history. There have been a large number of answers to these questions from many different cultural and ideological backgrounds. But in life nothing is absolute and far from perfection. Life is a journey for every soul in which destination set upon uncertainties.

What lay up for us is set up upon uncertainties. Validation logically to adapt in practical as we move on to changes. In general basically we are all cannot be the same. We may know each other for a long period of time or next-to kin but as such all attachment not owned as ownership's thus I have never intended to make anyone in debt with me. Therefore although in my life some may have misused my generosity and unassumingly thought or taken my kindness as weakness. To whom it may concerns it’s because life is not just a matter of materialism.

Never lose your faith. It is something theory logically cannot be seen but science functional as humans valid in the contra of all attachments. Fate cannot be denied as it already predestined. For someone who are able to validate and except the will of fate, he or she definitely achieve the transcending of upper level thus live life as much in more generous ways without a doubt.