Yesterday is a glimpse of memories no right or wrong

Don’t judge me by my past. Except me as who I am today for yesterday is a glimpse of memories no right or wrong. Life is a learning lesson as to progress from childhood to manhood but then again nothing is ever perfect. To learn it is wise as to adapt it in practicality and not only to live but to express oneself as honestly as possible. For those who have adapted lies and benefits from them actually trap in a dogmatic stigma will never ever know the value of life expression. But then again because of yesterday I am what I am today. I value life and relationship in different perceptive views. I also realised how too many entity bound to take kindness as weakness. Disgust me to my guts but then again I don’t lead anyone life but my own. I learn never to hope for anything in anyone but let it comes naturally. 

“Make people depend on you. It is not he that adorns but he that adores that makes a divinity. The wise person would rather see others needing him than thanking him. To keep them on the threshold of hope is diplomatic, to trust to their gratitude is boorish; hope has a good memory, gratitude a bad one. More is to be got from dependence than from courtesy. He that has satisfied his thirst turns his back on the well, and the orange once squeezed fall from the golden platter into the waste basket. When dependence disappears good behaviour goes with it, as well as respect. Let it be one of the chief lessons of experience to keep hope alive without entirely satisfying it, by preserving it to make oneself always needed, even by a patron on the throne. But do not carry silence to excess or you will go wrong, nor let another's failing grow incurable for the sake of your own advantage.

Application and ability. There is no attaining eminence without both, and where they unite there is the greatest fame. Mediocre people obtain more with application than superior people without it. Work is the price that is paid for reputation. What costs little is of little worth. Even for the highest posts it is only in some cases application that is wanting, rarely the talent. To prefer moderate success in great things over eminence in a humble post may be excused by a generous mind, but there is no excuse for being content with humble mediocrity when you could shine among the highest. Thus nature and art are both needed, and application makes them complete.” - Balthasar Gracian: The Art of Worldly Wisdom

The IED and DID characteristics which have lead me to meet and known what life is all about. For now IED have been frozen to sleep. Therefore don't get confused between my personality & my attitude. My personality is who I am; my attitude depends on who you are. When some asked me why I am only easy-going with certain kind of peoples? Well it all about who you care & who you don't, Sometimes, when you give up on someone, it's not because you don't care anymore, but because you realize they don't and that what make the differences between a people. So you will see why different attitude being apply to a different person due to what their character are. Let us look at a person perspective and you will realise on why there is a different among us. Being sad with the right people is better than being happy with the wrong Ones.

I have wasted my years but it was because I attached to responsibility. For now I am trying to find what I have lost. I trials try practically and lets the fate decide. In life we can never achieved everything of something. We have to be thankful alhamdulillah for what we live today or tomorrow is never primary or secondary but objective. To me what matter most where I stand in the midst of time? Life is a choice to make for a chance is an opportunity and maybe for a change to progress randomly. Trials try practically and let the fate decide. 

For what is important is the respect and value still there?

People keep on changing; either in a progress or slump into character of which we have not seen before but then to me it’s normal. That is because how many among friends becomes friends. For what is important is the respect and value still there? It is a humble question but never less even among friends that used to be closed become far apart. To me from my perspective views we never live alone in this world therefore human relation as such so call friends is born. To me friends have it categories. Don’t get me wrong. This is my humble expression from my heart.

“ Have friends. A friends is a second self. Every friend is good and wise for his friend; between them everything turn to good. Everyone is as others wish him to be - but in order that they may wish him well, he must win their hearts and so their tongues. There is no magic like a good turn, and the way to gain friendly feelings is to do friendly acts. The most and best of us depend on others - we have to live either among friends or among enemies. So seek someone everyday who will wish you well - if not a friend, by-and-by after trials some of these will become your confidants.

Make use of your friends. This requires all the art of discretion. Some are good far off, some when near. Many are no good at conversation but excellent as correspondents, for distance removes some failings which are unbearable in close proximity to them. Friends are for use even more than for pleasure, for they have the three qualities of the good, or, as some say, of being in general: unity, goodness, and truth. For a friend is all in all. Few are worthy to be good friends, and even these become fewer because people do not know how to pick them out. Keeping friends is more important than making them. Select those that will wear well - if they are new at first it is some consolation that they will become old. Absolutely the best are those well salted, though they may require soaking in the testing. There is no desert like leaving without friends. Friendship multiplies the good of life and divides the evil. It is the sole remedy against misfortune, like fresh air to the soul.

Neither love nor hate forever. Trust the friends of today as if they will be enemies tomorrow, and that of the worst kind. As this happens in reality, let it happen in your precaution. Do not put weapons in the hand for deserters from friendship to wage war with. On the other hand, leave the door of reconciliation open for enemies, and if it is also the gate of generosity so much the more safe. The vengeance of long ago is at times the torment of today, and the joy over the ill we have done is turned to grief.”- Balthasar Gracian: The Art of Worldly Wisdom

Therefore don't get confused between my personality & my attitude. My personality is who I am; my attitude depends on who you are. When some asked me why I am only easy-going with certain kind of peoples? Well... it all about who you care & who you don't, Sometimes, when you give up on someone, it's not because you don't care anymore, but because you realize they don't and that what make the differences between a person. So you will see why different attitude being apply to a different person due to what their character are. Let us look at a person perspective and you will realise on why there is a different among us. Being sad with the right people is better than being happy with the wrong Ones.
Basically I build myself with a high wall; I guess my structures were old as the "Great Wall of China", merely for a good purpose of mine. These walls of mine to seek the truth from others merely to see are you sincere? This practise I put in my soul as such also I would rather be single rather than having a wrong relationship or marriage. But again words could sometimes have two meanings or more so got your facts right. I really must agreed and admit I am seemed like a snobbish person but then again my thoughts are too deep basically none could see it. I am frequently torn between two pathways in life or actually do live two very different existences at the same time but I am honest. No matter where I goes I bring along my principal and concepts as long none touch my boundaries I am kind. But again in life as such too many simply tends to seek as such kindness as weakness. Honestly all that from my past, present and future examined by discretion, tested by fortune, certified not only will power but also understanding by me. To take pleasure in someone's company does not make him or her close friend. Life is a drifter but life without friends is a wasteland. As I said before my thoughts were too deep and I see none could see it.

LIKE IT OR NOT I AM DIFFERENT A RARE BREED.