Becoming selective and remains in the principal is not selfish.

At times a cup of coffee, alone with my own self doing nothingness I see myself clearly. Yes the imperfection of life struggles, how miracle happens or tragically unexpected situation; what I see are fractions that predestined in the journey. The journey of life is nothing more like a dramatic question to find an answer. Even so life hurdles cannot be predicted only forecast, how the situation you may falls or trap nobody will be able to help you. Only selective people will come-by and help regardless whether he or she have the same blood-line as you or none at all, puzzling because sometimes miraclely that person may only know you a little. Practically and mostly people who you knew don’t really care. After years that have pass-by and the result that I have been through I become selective. Therefore I always set my priority first now because people mostly may not even attempt to think the sacrifices you made for them. Not even be thankful so I tend to move forward regardless all that may tag along insya-allah. Put your trust and faith, lets the fate decide. But then when you are too honest in statement or principal people can mistook your intention as vengeance or hate. You cannot make everyone agree or like you. It becomes an awkward moments when you realized actually you cannot handle stupid people. I mean damn stupid, ignorance and selfish person, moving away from the negativism thoughts.

Becoming selective and remains in the principal is not selfish. Its mean you are giving your priority first but even so if you decline your priority first for other, your sacrifice is mean well. Nothing more a gestures truthful action from you, giving and not asking to gives back. My goal today may changes in future but it remains purely the same in principal, where do I stand in midst of time?

There lots of people out there to judge me wrongly but as I mentioned before I don’t really care because ALLAH knows my intentions. I am not yet settle and I am single basically not because I want to stay single forever it just that my soulmate is not yet destined. Some people with sarcasm thought or views think I do not even have girlfriends before. I am not a person to declare my relationships status when I involve in relationship. I do not see a point because I believed at times there are certain issues to just be kept but mostly people like to show off. Not until I get married than maybe I will gladly to declare. Some people with sarcasm thought or views may think I am a choosy fellow well nobody live in the same shoes as you. Who are they to judge you right? I believed ALLAH knows best and this FAITH AND TRUST never fails me. My motto for so many years till present, “Life is to live practically and survive with not doubt. Live life in trials practice and lets the fate decide.” Only selective people understand that principal of faith. A statement where do you think you belong?

Mana bukti syahadah ku

Apakah aku berdiri dengan syahadah

Berjalan dan berlari-lari hampir lemas

Lautan yang begitu luas terbentang

Kebebasan yang aku merasakan hilang

Di manakah pedoman aku ini

Atau mungkin sekadar bicara bibir

Aku menoleh ke belakang

Masa terdahulu sudah banyak terbuang

Tapi aku tetap di simpang penantian

Aku sudah pun penat

Sungguh letih dengan setiap keadaan

Tapi aku tetap di persimpangan

Mana bukti syahadah ku

أَشْهَدُ أَنْ لآ إِلَهَ إِلَّا الله

وَأَشْهَدُ أَنَّ مُحَمَّدًا رَّسُوْلُالله

Kata bukan di lisan saja

Di mana aku perlu membuktikannya

Di mana aku tidak bersandar kepada sesiapa

Syirik aku beramal kerana amal dan pahala

Tapi mana bukti syahadah ku

Innalillahi wa innalillahi rajiun.

Innalillahi wa innalillahi rajiun.

1. Maha Suci (Allah) yang ditanganNya kerajaan (pemerintahan) dan Dia Maha Kuasa atas tiap-tiap sesuatu.

2. Yang menjadikan mati dan hidup,supaya Dia menguji kamu,siapa diantara kamu yang lebih baik amalannya dan Dia Maha Perkasa lagi Pengampun.

(Surah Al-Mulk ayat 1 dan 2)

2. Dia yang menciptakan kamu dari pada tanah kemudian Dia menetapkan ajalmu dan ajal yang ditentukan disisiNya,kemudian kamu bimbang (juga kepadaNya)

( Surah Al-An'aam ayat 2 )

Hai Si Jabang Bayi

Tangisan Mu kala mula

Pabila nalurimu menjelma

Titip nada bergema-gema

Mencurah rasa kepada dunia

Hai Si Jabang Bayi

Yang ingin diberi nama

Di mana diri Mu mulai bersih

Jiwa-jiwa Mu tiada di noda

Itulah awal mula diri Mu

Hai Si Jabang Bayi

Bukanlah bangsa Mu yang Mulia

Bukanlah keturunan Mu yang Tinggi

Lihatlah akan diri Mu sendiri

Tiada berbeza hanyalah hamba

Hai Si Jabang Bayi

Tahukah siapa Tuhan Mu

Apakah pegangan Agama Mu

Penuhilah jiwa raga Mu

Kamu pasti kembali di kemari

Hai Si Jabang Bayi

Tiada perlunya kamu berbangga

Tiada perlunya kamu menyesal

Kerna inilah tulisan awal di Azali

Sebelum kamu hampir ke mari

Demi masa

Berapa ramaikah manusia rugi

Ingatlah akan lima perkara

Sebelumnya datang lima perkara

SihatMu sebelum sakitMu

MudaMu sebelum tuaMu

KayaMu sebelum miskinMu

LapangMu sebelum sempitMu

HidupMu sebelum matiMu

Hai Si Jabang Bayi

Bukan aku punya kekata

Inilah wasiat awal mula jadiMu

Dengarkanlah ikutkanlah

Sebelum kamu hampir ke kembali

Tarikh: 31/12/2011

Bersatu teguh bercerai runtuh

Ke mana mungkin hilangnya Taming Sari

Apakah ianya hanya akan tinggal nama

Keris pusaka lambang satria dalam diam membunuh sahabat

Dalam taat bertitah Raja namun kecundang akhirnya

Ke mana mungkin hilangnya Tuah

Laksmana terbilang dalam hikayat Melayu

Pendekar termashyur lima sahabat

Bersatu teguh bercerai runtuh

Ke mana mungkin para pendita

Mulai hilang dalam nyata maka luputlah pengetahuan kita

Takkan Melayu hilang di dunia

Tarikh: 10 haribulan October 2010 · 

Tidak kekal abadi.

Yang telah lama BERKUASA

Yang telah lama HIDUPNYA

Ada antara mereka TERLUPA

Ada antara mereka TERLENA

Si Firaun mengata dia TUHAN

Si Firaun mengata dia KUASA

Tapi fitrah jasad kenal DIRI

Tapi fitrah jasad pasti KEMBALI

Si Muda tidak akan sentiasa MUDA

Si Tua tidak aka sentiasa TUA

Semua pasti akan MATI

Tidak perlu mencerca Si Firaun

Tidak perlu menghukum Si Firaun

Itu bukan kerja KITA

Hakikatnya sebagai BERINGAT

Untuk yang fikir berdaulat KUASA

Untuk yang fikir berdaulat HARTA

Semua pasti akan MATI

Tidak kekal abadi......

Pasal orang SILAT

Pasal orang SILAT

Orang-orang SILAT ada pelbagai

Ada orang SILAT pandai-pandai

Ada orang SILAT dalam cyber saja

Ada orang SILAT menuntut haknya

Ada orang SILAT menguji-uji minda

Siapakah orang SILAT sebenar

Pasal orang SILAT

Orang-orang SILAT bermacam karenah

Bersilat hanya kerana ingin amalan

Bersilat hanya kerana ingin namanya

Bersilat hanya kerana ingin berdaulat

Di manakah makam SILAT sebenar

Pasal orang SILAT

Orang-orang SILAT bukan semua Islam

Islam itu adalah agama KITA

Islam itu bukan sekadar NAMA

Islam itu membentuk AKHLAK

Apakah SILAT itu ISLAM

Pasal orang SILAT

Orang-orang SILAT ada mencari SILAP

Kalau cakap SILAP nanti melawan

Kalau cakap SILAP nanti ditawan

Kalau cakap SILAP nanti berlawan

Belajar SILAT bukan sekadar SILAP

Pasal orang SILAT

Dulu sama kini pun tetap sama

Apa ada dengan orang SILAT.

February 11, 2015  Jam: 12:24 pagi 

Mereka Bukan Sesiapa, Hanya Suara Anjing

Mereka bertanya tentang usahaku

Sedangkan usahaku tidak perlu aku perlihatkan

Mereka bertanya tentang kedudukkanku

Sedangkan aku merasakan bukan keperluan

Mereka berkata memberi harapan dan kepastian

Sedangkan mereka terlupa bukan sesiapa menguruskan

Apakah mereka terlupa bahawa ALLAH menentukannya

Mereka yang berada di samping ku keliru

Aku tidak berfikiran sama seperti mereka

Sedangkan aku ini bukanlah sesiapa bagi diri mereka

Kenapa perlu keliru kerana tidak sama merasa

Apakah yang terfikir dalam hidup Mu

Andai mereka mengerti kewujudan itu sebenarnya tiada

Dia Yang Tetap Hidup; tidak ada Tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Dia; maka  sembahlah kamu akan Dia dengan mengikhlaskan amal agama kamu kepada-Nya sematamata. Segala puji tertentu bagi Allah, Tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbirkan sekalian alam. 

( Ayat 65 : Surah al-Mu’min )

Pasal malam Jumaat

Khamis malam Jumaat

Ramai Melayu kalut pasal malam Jumaat

Yang bersenang-senang dok asyik kata bedal

Yang bertahyul pulak terus mengasah karut

Yang penakut pulak kata Si Hantu berkeliaran

Aku tepuk kepala menjadi hairan

Memang hairan dengan otak Melayu

Khamis malam Jumaat

Hei awak nak bedal malam Jumaat je ke

Ni Fulan pulak berkemenyan dah buang tebiat ke

Yang ni pulak semenjak bila Jin jalan ada ikut masa

Kalau tak tahu pergilah tanya

Pergilah bertanya mengenal ilmu

Bukankah senang itu namanya

Khamis malam Jumaat

Peribahasa lama telah pun tertulis

Siapa makan cili dialah terasa pedas

Ikan kekek mak iloi iloi, dengar ke tak

Ikan gelama mak ilai ilai, kan dah terpanggil

Nanti adik mak iloi iloi....

Khamis malam Jumaat

Siapa Yang GILA ?

Pasal orang gila
Ramai berkata dia gila
Dia suka bercakap sendirian
Kadangkala kerap dia ketawa
Duduk termenung meracau diri
Mengila dalam pandangan mata

Tapi aku lihat dia mengada
Kalau dia memang seorang gila
Bagaimana Si Gila tidak sesat jalan
Dia tahu mana hendak dia menuju
Meluat aku teramat meluat
Kalau boleh hendak aje aku sepak
Pijak-pijak muka Si orang gila

Hei Si Orang gila
Kamu ini benarkah gila
Caramu memang tak masuk akal
Kamu sebenarnya sakit jiwa
Jiwa-jiwa Mu menjadi tebal
Melayan karenah resah gelisah

Melihatmu aku tak kasihan
Mengharap benar kaki aku ini
Untuk menyepak kepala Mu
Biar kamu mati
Biar nanti aku yang gila

Tarikh: 4/02/2015 – Rabu

Jam: 5.15 petang

[MASRULHAKIM]

What matter most to me where do I belong in the midst of time?

When the laziness begins it embark into self-cultivation of just not wanting to do anything that might complicate the minds. Sitting and blasting whatever music that sounds music to my ears how life can be so fucking complicated. Oh well life just a plain of nothingness but creation of own for now I am lazy. Yes at times I prefer laying myself with a cup of coffee to ease myself and blast whatever that sound music to me. A moment for myself, when I am alone my vision can be more accurately clear thus that is how I manage to express it in words.  Of course whatever that was written cannot come into perfect absolute answer but the point is having the reason to question. Mostly people like to follow the crowd blinded from what they really want. Is it justified? We are merely attachment of all that’s come by in our life. Each has purpose and responsibilities regardless because of agenda. Life is a dramatic lesson. What is your purpose here? That’s only you yourself can configure the answer.

How I may envy some people, living life as such with tremendous things but then the envies does not put me down because what I believe all are predestined. My colors of life is what I as an artist what to color it. Do I want to paint just merely rainbow? Nope I prefer complexity. No words can describe it only to be feeling by others differently. Every artist has their own complexity. I do not believed living by others as such my course of action or attitude makes me into a snobbish person. At times I have a problem knowing something before it happen thus my action becomes a taboo to others. I do not like to think in a big crowd. Honestly it makes me sick. Yes my words are harsh but I am not arrogant. I am not a saint or a religious person. I am still learning. That’s basically the reason why I do not want to continue my studies years ago. Not because education is not important but I believed in practicality and self-cultivate for creativeness. A person does not just educate themselves to be a student only but must embark themselves whatever that he or she learn and use it in life. It could be his or her career, relationship or whatever in life. The point is your life must be live upon your intention with creativity. Do you? But no person able to accomplished all. I am still seeking myself what I am best at.

The journey of life, how you struggle, how you falls ampler times, how to crawl up and whatever challenges you may takes believe me no person will know your suffering. They may know it but the pain you when into no person know it. The reality of life only selective few humble friends that come-by knowing, understand and except your situation; not allowing you to lose your focus. Each and every entity has distinguish own struggles. The different between winning and losing is in life how you can accept and move forward. Winning is not everything in life. What you achieve and what you can give to yourself and others that is winning. For every purpose you make must show at least the result.

Therefore I am trying not because I want to be known but I am trying for myself. If my action gives a good result I don’t mind shares a bit of my sweat. The emotion when a person gladly accepts what was given by me to my humble opinion an amazing feeling, Alhamdulillah. But then human mostly like to assume. Your action may come-by for what they may think correct as an agenda and question your purpose. Others may tries to take advantage of your kindness. The reality of life, if you really kind you just don’t care although you may feel the pinch of salt. Ignore; not losing focus and move forward. That is a part of success. What matter most to me where do I belong in the midst of time?